I laid in bed, wishing for the morning sun to go away, wishing for another hour of sleep. Sleep. I just wanted to sleep. Eyes still shut tight, I rolled to my left side and curled into a fetal position. Thoughts raced through my head. They never stopped. I willed them to stop. I just wanted peace. I wanted sleep but could not get any. My mind was always spinning, always spiraling.
What’s the point? All of this is vanity anyway. Life doesn’t make any sense. I don’t know how I’m going to keep going. Why am I thinking like this? I’m just so tired. I want to sleep. I have to get up. I can’t. Why do I feel so empty? Did I sin? Am I being punished? What if I’m not really saved? Why can’t I feel the Holy Spirit working in me? I hate this. I hate feeling this way. Oh, I’m so tired!
“Lord, please help me!” I whispered, as tears streamed down my cheeks. That was becoming my daily morning prayer. A plea for help. A plea for grace. Continue reading →
We are moving. I’m still struggling to grasp that fact. I knew this time would come. The time when the Marine Corps would move us away to another area. I know. Duh, Lydia! That’s the military! But, you see, we’ve actually been pretty lucky blessed to have not had to move yet. Crazy, I know! In my husband’s almost nine years in the military, this will be our first official move. We have been truly blessed.
We have been getting advice from my friend who recently moved to the gorgeous founders village in CO on all the things we need to remember when moving, things she forgot to do and things she wished she had done to make it easier. She has been very helpful. No matter how hectic our move is I always think that at least we aren’t moving countries! Another one of my friends moved to the UK a few years back to start a new business. They told us how half of their stuff got lost, how it took ages to adjust to UK life, how they had to apply for a Entrepreneur visa now they’re having to apply for a Entrepreneur visa extension and so much more… So whenever I think about how stressed I am, I remember them and feel much better!
Anyway, I’m getting off track. It’s amazing how much you realize you love a place after you are told you’re going to be leaving. For the past couple of years, I had been scrambling and praying for us to be moved somewhere else, and now I’m practically clawing to stay. But, it’s not the area that I’m going to miss. I can honestly say good riddance to the area itself. It’s the people. It’s our church. In the last year, we started attending a new church and fell in love with all the people there! We made wonderful friendships; friendships that are going to last, for sure. These people, this church reached in and Continue reading →
“Do you know who that baby is? That’s Jesus – Jesus Christ!”
I looked up from my phone and saw him standing there, surrounded by a couple young children. He was your son, and he looked like maybe he was about ten years old. I could be wrong. Listening to him speak, I could tell he might be autistic or have some sort of learning disability. None of that matters though because his words pierced my very soul.
“Do you know what Jesus did? He came to be the Savior of the world! He loves us so much that He died on the cross for our sins so that we could be free!”
Tears flowed down my cheeks as I intently listened from across the room. A warmth filled my soul. I listened as your son continued to Continue reading →
This week, as I was sitting in Bible study with fellow Christian ladies, we all started opening up about our shortcomings. What was astounding was the realization that there seems to be this idea of what a Christian housewife and mother “should” be. Some of us sheepishly admitted the things that we do that don’t fit the supposed Christian housewife mold. That’s when I decided I would write a blog post to show that, though I’m a Christian, I still have faults. We need to be honest with each other and ourselves. It’s okay to not fit the mold that seems to be in the forefront of our minds. It’s okay to be real.
1. I don’t wake up at the crack of dawn to do my alone time with God. To be even more honest, I don’t even do my devotions in the morning, and I oftentimes sleep until my children wake up. (To add another eyebrow-raiser, Continue reading →
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