I have this peach-colored, stretchy kind of shirt that had been sitting in my shirt drawer for what seemed like forever. It had been a while since I’d last worn it because it seemed to always fit the wrong way.
It hugged all of my curves, both the good ones and the ones that I would rather keep hidden. You know those unattractive back rolls? Yeah, this momma has them. One of these days I won’t have them anymore. I hope.
But, I did just spend several years in a row being pregnant constantly. As much as I tried keeping the weight off, six pregnancies in 5 years (four of them resulting in live births) don’t really give the body adequate time to recover. Throw in a couple years of severe postpartum depression, and you can imagine the impact my weight has received.
I decided to give the shirt another try. I slipped it on and stared at myself in the mirror. I looked slim. I felt beautiful. It didn’t seem to hug my curves like usual. A burst of confidence surged through me!
I got so excited and ran to the bathroom scale. I stepped on it, eager to see my apparent progress. The number that blinked back at me was not what I expected. Instead of losing, I had GAINED two pounds! No, it was not a result of working out and gaining muscle. I haven’t worked out in quite some time. I know; shame on me.
My confidence shattered and sprinkled all over the floor around me. I got off the scale and put it away, discouragement slowly filling inside me.
I stepped in front of the mirror again, and this time I didn’t see the slim woman I saw before. My curves looked awkward, and the shirt no longer seemed flattering.
Okay, so I’ve been keeping it a secret on the blogging world too long. If you’ve been following my Instagram, then you know what I’m talking about.
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Time has come and gone, and I haven’t done a blog post in about a week. Gah! I assure you that I haven’t forgotten about my blog. In fact, I’ve been itching to get on here and write something. Needless to say, life has been a little more than hectic around here. Baby girl has been continuing to give us scares. We ended up in the hospital two more times with contractions close together and intense. Once again, they had to stop the contractions both times. The most recent was this past Saturday. They kept us overnight, and it took a while before the contractions stopped. The doctors decided to go ahead and give me steroid shots for her lungs, in case she decides to come in the next two weeks, which is very plausible considering the rapid changes my body has been going through. This mommy is exhausted, but I’m thankful that baby girl is staying put and continuing to grow for now.